Goodbye's not the word that you want to hear, your life spent put on hold
for almost two years. You've tried and you've tried and you gave it your all,
it's sad to say cause dreams are too small. We used to be so afraid; but we found our way. Hello to a broken world that has gone on without you.
In twenty years you haven't found any evidence of truth.
I don't blame you for questioning why people fall in love.
It's all the things you were taught to run from. 

I can see your face in my mirror
hear your voice in my fear
you're everywhere but here

i can see it in your eyes you mean all of what you say,
i remember so along ago when i felt the same way.
now we both have separate lives and lovers,
insignificantly enough we both have significant others.

Tonight I'm drowning in my favorite records, trying to
forget how every thread reminds me of the nights I
spent with you. They play the soundtrack to my falling
tears, the soundtrack to this wasted year.

you were a song in my head,
the warmth of the sheets in my bed.
a story forever told, but never old,
a warm arrival never left so cold.
don't blink, don't close your eyes,
but most of all don't apologize.

It's like a dream you try to remember but it's gone.
Then you try to scream but it only comes out as a yawn;
when you try to see the world beyond your front door.

This is a wasted conversation, lost on you.
This is a test of my patience, your blue eyes are so cruel.
I can't escape all the things we said, I've taken years off my life with the weight of regret.
Now there’s nothing left, there is nothing left to lose. Shouldn't I feel alive?
I swear that I tried to be alright to sleep at night.

You're just a waste of a song. You're a simple regret. I thought I knew who you were, but watch how fast I forget. You wore your prettiest dress, but there's a mess in your head. They say old habits die hard. I say they're better off dead, Because you were bitter and cold, but still you burned me alive. You held the match to my skin and poured the fuel on the fire. You're not my favorite mistake; just a simple regret. I thought I knew who you were, but watch how fast and watch how well I forget.

Remember me before, when all I ever did was worry, feeling out of control to the point where everything was going end over end. I'm spinning around in circles again. This is where you come in. All of this to explain to you why I had to seperate myself away from yesterday's life. Please remember this isn't how I hoped it would be. But I had to protect you from me. That's why I slipped out the back before you knew I was there. I know you felt unprepared. But every single time I was around, I just bring you down and I could tell that it was time to be scared. That's why I slipped out the back before you knew I was there. And I know the way I left wasn't fair.
I just didn't want to be around just to bring you down.

You've got me so worked up, running circles in my mind. Why can't you give hoensty a fair try? I feel like i'm always in a contest with her, to see whose prettier, nicer, better. But I'm sick of that. If you can't make up your mind, you can have her. I don't want to turn into a jealous bitch because of you, and I don't want to hate her for no reason. I just wish there was a better solution.

for the first time in a long time my life is real.
it doesnt matter who ends up
with who because in some unearthly way,
it's always gonna be you and me.

That's the thing with jealousy. It chews on your soul.
And it doesn't stop until you let it go.

I'm the one who has to die when it's my time to die,
so let me live my life the way I want to.
++Jimi Hendrix

Cause that`s what happens when you try to run from the past.
It doesn`t just catch up; it overtakes, blotting out the future,
the landscape, the very sky, until there`s no path left except that
which leads through it, the only one that can ever get you home.

There are places I'll remember all my life; though some have changed
Some forever, not for better. Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments with lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living. In my life I've loved them all
But of all these friends and lovers, there is no one that compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning when I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection for people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more

I wanna be the everything you need, the every sight you see.
The closest thing to epidemic, slightly your disease.
A love without a cure, no uncertainties for sure.
The closest thing to alcohol that calls you back for more.

Oh, you could leave me. You could walk right out the door, and maybe you wouldn't ever look back. It'd be just like you. I would live, and move on. There's others out there. I can have them, and I can love them too. But baby, you can't go without saying goodbye. Without kissing me one more time, wrapping your arms around me. Tucking my hair behind my ear. I think you'd regret just turning on your heel, so don't. I'll give you anything you want, if only, if only, you'll just say goodbye.

you wouldn't know a good thing if it came up and slit your throat.

  at night i drink myself to sleep and pretend,
"i don't care if you're not here with me."
'cause it's so much easier to handle
all my problems if i'm too far out to sea.

shes slipping, she knows it.
her insecurities are getting the better of her.
one more disappointment and
she knows she isn't going to make it.
so lets make a promise.
promise you wont break her,
and she promises not to fall.

so tonight your hopes fall
and break the molds of fate.
your tear ducts run dry, you're bleeding all this paint.
so take back your lies and hold them all inside,
just tell me the truth, atleast for just one night.

i am dressed up tonight,
just to look pretty in your eyes.
and even though i don't know anything,
i want to tell you everything.

these are tire tracks over pretty eyes,
you didn't need to see me cry.
i want you to taste this and tell me,
i'm the only thing that keeps you breathing.

you won't forget me on nights like these.
the moon will cast on you, the shadow of
my kiss. no matter where you are, or who
you're with, you'll think of me. you won't forget.

come by, we'll take the afternoon off.
we can kiss and undress or if you want, just talk.
cause i've got nothing real, just empty space to fill.
and you're my boy, i like your style.
just imagine all the time we would kill.

i'm sorry about the phone call and needing you.
some decisions you don't make.
i guess it's like breathing and not wanting to.
there are some things that you can't fake.

you never fall in love the same way twice.

i forgot how good it feels to be with
someone who wants to be with you.

i can tell you're having trouble breathing, because
you'll never be okay. you'll always be in pain. you'll
always feel this way because things they never
work out right. you'll always be in pain.

it's four am and shes staring at the ceiling,
trembling at the thought of feeling on the
edge of everything she's ever known,
trying hard not to fall once again.
but knowing that she's wedged
between a rock and a razor,
not knowing which one she'd rather face.
learned to smile when shes broken inside,
learned to laugh when she's tempted to cry.
eyeliner and mascara masks her heart.
skin tight jeans keep her from falling apart.
shes learned to live when she feels like
dying and getting over him is a phase.
shes trying. but sometimes, you just can't let go.
he makes everything wrong but she just can't say no.

You want to know what I love most about us?
I love how comfortable we are with each other
I love how we can endlessly crack on each other
but never take the teasing to heart. I love how
you laugh like a little boy when I`m tickling you.
I adore how when I walk away from you when
we`re fighting, you try to stay mad at me but
then you run after me for the fear of losing me.
I love you & everything about you. the look in
your beautiful blue eyes when we kiss or
sometimes when I fall asleep on you & you
stay up & watch me. I love how I can call
you anytime I need to & you never
cease to make me smile.

Out of all the things I look forward to in life to doing with you is sleeping..not making love although I always look forward to that too but even more so just sleeping in the same bed you holding me in your arms & me falling asleep on your chest..waking up with you right next to me..that`s what I want ; that`s what I look forward too.

"'Cause you're the storm that I've been needing,
and all this peace has been deceiving.
I like the sweet life and the silence,
but it's the storm that I believe in."

i'm getting tired of believing we could've been something but even more than that, i'm tired of pretending like i don't care.

another cigarette
and i'm so bored
your words aren't making sense

I've got no right to win,
I'm just caught up in all the battles

One day you'll get sick of
saying that everything’s alright.
And by then I’m sure ill be
pretending just like I am tonight.

I pity him because i get to walk away & be me.
& he has to stay him, you know? & who wants
to be him when you can be me? I’m smart, I’m
funny, i am "it". i was the magic, the abracadabra
i was the "poof" in the relationship

And no relationship is perfect, ever. There are some ways you have to bend, to compromise, to give something in order to gain something greater. But the love we have for each other is bigger than those small differences. And that's the key. It's like a big pie chart, and the love in a relationship has to be the biggest piece. Love can make up for a lot.

I woke up in mid-afternoon cause that's when it all hurts the most
I dream I never know anyone at the party and I'm always the host
If dreams are like movies, then memories are films about ghosts
You can never escape, you can only move south down the coast

"Don't you get it? She's the house! She's the plain white shutters, the sparkling glass windows, the perfect white picket fence. She's the ordinary stuff. But you ... you're the red door. And when people come by, yeah, sure, they see the house. But for some reason, they always end up looking at the door. It's always in the corner of their eye. You can't ignore a red door. And the house is nice, hell, the house is perfect. But then there's that door. It's almost painful to look at. You're the door."

It took an ending for me to realize, to face these pacts and retract our growing lies. Don't tell me I was a mistake and you regret every choice we made. And think of nothing every time you hear my name and if you don't bow your head and feel ashamed. When our eyes last met I knew that you were not okay, but nothing matters when your surfing on these vibes. I have these thoughts of holding hands with you another day.

I must admit, I saw it coming. The air between us had gotten harder yet to breathe. I'd run away if I could help it, but I can't remember to forget your face. You're as beautiful as ever, yet I’m starting to resent your smile. Because it's killing me to say this, but I’m dying inside to leave. It's a place we've never been, and it's a waste to keep it in. It means little to you, but it means the world to me.

It's over, look out below and I'm wasted, I still taste it. Yeah it's so hard to let go so breathe in now, and breathe it out. The forecast; a car crash. It's looking like another breakdown, rebound. This could be my last goodbye. You crossed your heart, I hope to die and I can't deny your eyes. You know I tried to read between the lines,
I saw a warning sign and then you threw me up against the wall. Who said that it's better to have loved and lost? I wish that I had never loved at all.

These eyes, they're strongly covered in disguise. They're waiting on the real time again.
You'll see that no one knows for sure. For all of this I'm better off without you.
Do you regret all your loneliness? This ride is drifting slowly to the side.
We're swerving off the road, going past the cones that warned us from the start.
For all of this I'm better off without you.

On the way home this car hears my confessions. I think tonight I'll take the long way. This weather, the wind outside is bitting. It has left me tired and exposed. You've been asking me to bleed . It seems these kinds of questions come too easy to you now, but your lack of shame comes naturally, I should not be surprised, I should have seen it sooner. Expect me to apologize for things that you've done wrong. While you're inciting others, you're owning up to nothing and I wish that I was gone, 'cause you're not going anywhere. This damp air is fighting my defroster. My sighs they ring victorious and fog this tinted glass. It's clouded and so is my head. The hint of these new tears are sharp. I try to hold them back, but it's useless. I'm useless against them. They're beating me with ease.

   That was how you knew love.
My mother had told me that.
All you had to do was imagine your life without the other person,
and if the thought alone made you shiver,
then you knew.

been up all night staring at you
wondering what's on your mind
i've been this way with so many before
but this feels like the first time
you want the sunrise to go back to bed
i want to make you laugh

baby, i think you've had enough.
the hardest part of sleeping is waking up.
and you know i care for you so much,
i'd never let this happen if you were in my arms.

i felt as though i ruined the moment.
my metaphors weren't satisfying to his ego,
and i can't stress this enough,
i'm no good with words.

im better off just pretending
like i never really knew you.
i have to stop holding hands
with the memory im feeling.

I hope that someday,
somebody wants to hold you
for twenty minutes straight,
and that's all they do.
They don't pull away.
They don't look at your face,
they don't try to kiss you.
all they do is wrap you up
in their arms,
without an ounce
of selfishness in it.

i'm scared as hell to want you,
but here i am wanting you anyway,
and fear means i have something to lose, right?
and i don't want to lose you.

i don't want you to be
better off without me.

If someone breaks your heart, just punch them
in the face. Oh sure, it seems obvious now, but you'd
be amazed at how many people don't think of it when
it's relevent. Seriously, just punch them
in the face and go get some ice cream.

If you could read my mind
I wonder what you
would think of yourself.

If a simple song makes you
want to break down and cry
you know you’re losing it.

all she really wants is for you to finally
get the nerve to say how you really feel about her.
that way, when you look at her,
shes not still second guessing what you really mean.

secret 24; even though we weren't in love,
i miss that boy more than
anyone will ever understand.

And I'm sorry if you think I'm
being a bitch, but being screwed
over isn't fun and I'm sick of it.

i hope you dont look at her
the same way you look at me.

would you believe me if i said i
could live without you ? becasue i
wouldnt believe you if you said
that shit to me.

i hate how being just friends
is perfectly fine with you
i hate how you joke around
just like we used to
i hate how you just go on
like it doesn't hurt you.

since we are being brutally honest here ;
you were the worst mistake
that i ever had the pleasure of making.

when im with you,
the only place i want to be is closer.

"I never meant to hurt you"
he whispers as he runs his
fingers through my hair.
i meant to say the same thing,
but it came out all wrong --
"I never meant to love you."

see, I thought love was black and white that it was wrong or it was right. but you aren’t leaving without a fight

Don't pick up the phone, don't bother to look in my direction. I should have seen it all along.
It's boys like you that make me think I'm better off home on a Saturday night,
with all my doors locked up tight. I won't be thinking about you, baby.
Forget everything you think you know about me.

Sometimes, I wish that I was the weather
You'd bring me up in conversation forever
And when it rained I'd be the talk of the day
Sometimes, I wish that I was a cold beer
I'd rest assured that you would hold me near
I'd be guaranteed to be just what you need
And there could be no other way cause you're so, you're so lame
Your tired words are all, they're all the same
And I would walk, you know I'd surely walk away
If I wasn't such a sucker for you.

So you dream that love is greater than the stars
So you wake to find it’s all what you are
Well I just wanna be what you think of when you smile
And I just wanna be what’s reflected in your eyes
But I can’t sit still and let you pass me by
Because I can’t dream if you’re not on my mind
And if I can’t see you, I feel blind
And I need your light.

It's so amazing when you fall in love for the first time. It's all so new. The butterflies, smiles, hugs, and all of the nights spent on the phone. What makes it even more amazing is that it never really ends. If you truly love somebody, you never really stop. You'll move on, you'll try to replace, but there are always going to be times when you think back to the times when you really felt alive.

You could never replace the gaping empty space in my heart. It's not that you're not great, because i swear you are. It's just you're not my star. You don't light up a room upon your entrance. You don't make my heart race uncontrollably but most of all, you're not him.

We fight mainly for one reason. Cause when you fight you truly find out how much you're willing to take before you break and when you break you need to see if that other person truly cares enough to make everything okay again cause without fighting, liars of love could be walking all over the place.

I don't make mistakes, I date them.

I keep wondering where did I go wrong. Maybe I didn't go wrong at all. Maybe things are going to turn out the way they're meant to and nothing's going to stop them. Some things are easy to control and work out. But some things you just have to let go. So instead of asking why it turned out like this, i should accept that it is how it is. There is no way to change it, but I can love it. I want to love it.

Once i let go, that's it. It's done. There won't be a second chance after I choose not to hold on because it's up to me right now. If i keep holding on, maybe he will too. But I'm holding on by a thread and i'm getting tired. i just want to know if I should cut it now, or keep my heart dangling, waiting for an answer.

I've made mistakes in my life. I've let people take advantage of me, and I accepted way less than I deserve. But, I've learned from my bad choices and even though there are some things I can never get back and people who will never be sorry, I'll know better next time and I won't settle for anything less than I deserve.

The things about life that I've learned is that you're going to get hurt. You're going to have emotional nights and cry yourself to sleep for hours. you're going to suffer some kind of heartbreak, some kind of loss. But you will also have those moments where you heal. Those moments are the best. You feel like you smile for the first time again. You feel like you're alive again. Life just kinda restarts.

My friends are always telling me to move on, to give up. But why? Why should I? They don't see you the way that I see you. They don't look into your eyes and see the world. Why would they understand? They can't possibly imagine what it means to look at your best friend and see all their hopes and dreams come true. I wish for once, just once, they could walk a mile in my shoes. Buy they wouldn't need to walk that far, they would just take one step and suddenly, they would take back every bit of "getting over you" advice they had ever given me and realize you are my life, you were meant for me, and that moving on or giving up is simply not an option.

There's a big fucking world out there. It's messy, and it's chaotic, and it's never, it's never ever the thing you'd expect. It's okay to be scared, but you can't allow your fears to turn you into an asshole. Not when it comes to the people who love you, the people who need you.

When you see me now, I hope you're sorry and I hope you regret how you hurt me. I hope you see me with someone else and wish it was you. I hope you regret all you've done and wish you could take it all back.

Maybe it's true what they say. There are those people you encounter in life who you never really get over. No matter how many other better people you meet, people who treat you better and love you better, in the back of your mind, there is always that person you can't quite completely forget.

But since then I been back down to the end. I can't believe the things you never said. I can't explain the words I never found. My whole world should come crashing down, you know.

Well you didn't see it coming cause you never understood that there's a time to draw the line when things are going good.

And if I could have known on that winter day that you'd fade away and only I was to blame, I would have stayed awake and found a way to make every soul in the crowd stand and say bittersweet and shame but the ending makes us strong.

Somehow I never thought I would run into you again, anywhere at all. But I wondered aloud and asked anyone who knew you how you were. I hoped that you were well. Still so much time has passed but there's nothing like seeing you. Trouble stayed away, funny how it never did when you were here.

as he talked i just watched his face, wondering what it was that i'd ever thought was so magical about him. i had been fascinated by the things he'd shown me, but they were all just sleight of hand, quarters pulled from children's ears. anyone can do that trick if they know how. it's nothing special.

it's easy to convince yourself that you
aren't in love with someone .. until you
see them in the hallway or smell someone
wearing their cologne. & then you're like
"here we go again"
you don't ever stop loving someone,
it's more a matter of learning to live with
the pain of not having them anymore.

I keep thinking, "It's you're loss. It's not mine."
But it is also mine. I chose to lose you, the only boy, who so far,
holds the ability to make me smile faster than someone can snap their fingers

I know that some part of you is hesitating for a moment, & if there is a moment of hesitation, then that means you feel something, too. All I ask, please, is that you just don't dismiss that & try to dwell in it for just ten seconds. There isn't another soul on this planet who has ever made me half the person I am when I'm with you, & I would risk this friendship for the chance to take it to the next plateau. Because it is there; between you & me. You can't deny that. Even if, you know, even if we never talk again after tonight, please know that I'm forever changed because of who you are & what you've meant to me.

Maybe it's just an act. Maybe you still do think of me often, in stealing moments, or at night when you can't fall asleep; wondering if I was wondering.

Because for me it's always been you, always.
And I've tried to fight it, I've tried to deny it,
but I can't. You're undeniable.

I wanted to tell him that I will never be sorry for loving him. And that in a way I still do- and maybe I always will. I'll never regret one single thing we did together because what we had was very special. Maybe if we were ten years older it would have worked out differently. Maybe. I think it's just that I'm not ready for forever.

do the damn thing (: